Rusty Fingers

Exactly four months today since I got back from Newcastle.

Got held back from writing due to work, weddings, preparations... I think my weekends are now filled with all sorts of activities. Not that I'm complaining but it is quite hectic. I'm lucky enough I only work from 8 to 5. phew.

My most recent trip was my graduation. Happily to announce that I am now a MSc Marine Engineering (with honors) graduate! Alhamdulillah it has been a milestone for me. Way too many obstacles during my 1 year study in Newcastle. I've had my ups and downs but in the end it was worthwhile.

I dedicated my thesis to my late grandmother, Rahmah Bujang, and a day after Maktok passed away my results came out. I didn't even got the chance to tell her I got a distinction but I hope she knows.

It has been a very tough year for me, really. I constantly think of her especially before I sleep. It's heartbreaking to actually admit she's no longer with all of us. Sometimes I dream of her at night, where she would call my name.

I think there are lots of things I wish I had done with her/ for her. I wish I had brought her eat durian just like I promised, I wish I had taken more photos of her and with her, I wish I had called her every single day when I was away, I wish I had spent more quality time with her, I wish I had gone back Malaysia when I knew she was unwell, and sometimes I wish I had never even gone to Newcastle so that at least I could have spent my last Hari Raya with her.

These are the things that we regret in life, things we wish we would have done, could have done. But it's all in the past now and we grow to be better human beings each day, learning that it's never the amount of things we do, but the quality time we use is what matters.

I always try my best to make doa for Maktok, hoping that one day we could see each other once again, hopefully in heaven. Insya'Allah.

Because of you Maktok, my world in filled with joy, OUR world is filled with joy. :')

Al-Fatihah.

Long absence

Yes, I have been on extremely long absence for weeks, okay months. I have so many pending stories to tell. Too many I don't think it will fit in just one post.

First good news is my master's journey has officially ended on 6th August 2014. Yes, it has been 3 weeks! And I can't believe I have not find time to write until now. Tsk.

Above all, alhamdulillah the journey is finally over. I can't believe I have survived the 11-month classes-exams-research process. The process was not easy, totally not. I'm taking MSc Marine Engineering for goodness sake it is not easy at all! Especially cos I have very very little knowledge on that area. It was indeed a good experience for me, yeah people might think it's all happy and fun being able to study abroad, what they don't know is that everyday is a struggle being away from family. That is the truth. As much fun it is to be able to explore new things, nothing beats the joy of being with your family. Nothing!

I really can't wait to get back home, spending all the time I have in the world with my family, especially with my mother and grandmother whom I owe the most. She is truly an angel to me (my mother) I just don't know how I could ever repay her. And to my grandmother who is not very well back home, I'm sorry for being away for too long, I'm sorry I couldn't be there to help you go through the pain, I'm just sorry. If I could take away the pain from you, I would. All I could do for now is pray for your health, may you be 10 times healthier each day every single day. *wipes tears*

So yes, trying to cope with studies while being away with family and constant worry over them is excruciatingly painful.

Good news is Maktok is getting better by day, alhamdulillah; and I will be back in my family's arms in 3 weeks' time InsyaAllah.

I'm thankful I have such strong support system in my life, and I want nothing more than never-ending happiness and good health for all of them. Because of them, I am who I am now. :')

"All that I am, or hope to be, I owe to my Mother"

As Mother's Day is approaching, I can't help to think about my mom, how grateful I am that she brought me into this world. She is just such an inspiration to my life, and all I have been doing so far is because of her, because I want her to be proud of who I am now, the daughter she has brought up for 27 years. There were times when she would put on a fake smile in front of us when times were difficult, that time when she constantly looks for us because she feels lonely, also that time when she's in pain but refuse to let us know just because she doesn't want us to worry.

Dear Mama,

I wish you know how much you are loved by us all, how grateful we are for all the things you have done for us, and how guilty we are for giving you hard times, for making you sad, for making you cry. I hope you know that was never our intention at all, because all we want in this world is to make you happy just like how you've made us all.

We love you, from the bottom of our hearts. We promise. And no one could ever Ever replace you.

Happy Mothers' Day, Mama. Can't wait to see you.

Lots of love,
Nadiah

Baby sisters

Sometimes I find it difficult to control both of them. They make me angry very often than not, but never for a second I stopped loving them. It's impossible not having both of you in my life. Thank you Allah.
Kakak loves you Zureena & Zulaikha. Be good always k.

Family vacay.

After serving 2 months' notice in Sony, & before venturing into a different field of work, mom decides on a family vacay. Singapore.

What we did:

1) On budget airline, Jetstar, we arrived Singapore approx 12.30pm. Dropped our stuffs at the hotel and had a 5 hour walk along Orchard Rd. The ice-cream potong was the best part. Flavour: durian. And then dinner at the famous Zam-zam on Arab St.

2) Head off to USS early, 9am. Had breakfast there & waited for the gates to open at 10am. Tip: Don't stop too long for pictures when you enter, best is you get all the rides done and take pics later. Queued for transformer only 15mins coz we were some of the earliest, after transformers, the line was already up till the entrance. Phew! The day goes on till 7pm. And dinner at Newton! Seafood. :))

3) Since it's the last day, we decided to just chill arnd Orchard. Had lovely brunch at Medz'. Lovely place, a must try in Orchard Central. Head back to KL by 7pm. Family,love,life. Nothing gets better than this. :)

Lil' Harris' new hair

So yeah, Lil Harris got his haircut. Btw, he's my baby brother. Yes, u heard it right. I have 1 baby brother aged 3+. Here he is, with his new haircut. A comparison of what a romeo he was before. And now. This is my daddy's doing. He wanted his only son to look manly rather than a romeo. And of course, my step mummy got mad with that. But hey, life's good nevertheless. :)

Before: Harris Bieber

After: Military officer maybe??

So the Papa. Like father like son??